Dad, this is a disgrace for you!!!

I used to stay up till the morning with my friends for beramain-play and frolic. I left my wife in the solitude and misery that only God knows. A faithful wife no longer advise me mempu already advised not working anymore.One night, I just got home from staying up late, the clock showed 03.00 am, I saw my wife and my little daughter falling asleep. Then I went into the next room to spend the night with the remains of view porn films via video, time, time in which Allah azza wajalla down and said: "Is there anyone who prayed that I grant it?. Anyone who asked for forgiveness so that I forgive?, Is there anyone who asks me that I gave him. "Suddenly the door opened and I saw my daughter who was barely 5 years old. He saw me and said: "Father, this is a disgrace for you!!!, Fear God," and repeated it three times and then closed the door and left.I was shocked and then I turn off the video. I sat pensive and his words echoed ditelingaku and almost membinasakanku, and I followed him out but he was back again the place of sleep. I like crazy, do not know what just happened to me at that time. Shortly afterwards came the call to prayer from the mosque near the house that broke the darkness of the night, calling for dawn prayers.I then went kemasjid berwudlu. I'm not eager to pray, just as my daughter's words made me uneasy.Prayer begins, the priest bertakbir and read some verses of the Qur'an. When he prostrated, I will kneel behind him and put my forehead on the ground until I cried hard without know why. This is the first time I did prostration to Allah azza wajalla since seven years ago.Cries it is opening goodness me, the crying has issued what is in my heart in the form of infidelity, hypocrisy and damage. I felt a grain of faith began to seep into my soul.After prayer I went to work. When I met with my friend, he was surprised to see me come quickly but usually always late due to staying up all night. When he asked the cause, I told him what had happened last night. Then he said: "Give thanks to God who has moved little boy so menyadarkanmu of kelalaianmu before coming death." Upon arriving midday time, I was pretty tired because they have not slept since the night. Then I asked the friend to replace my job, and I went home to rest. I'm anxious to see what the cause hidayahku daughter and my return to God.I came home and was greeted by my wife crying, and then I asked, "What's wrong with you, my wife?", The answer out of him like a thunderbolt. "Daughter had died".I could not control myself and cried. After calm my soul, I realized that what happened to me merely a test from Allah azza wajalla to test my faith. I thank Allah azza wajalla. I picked up the receiver and dialed my friend. I asked him to help me.My friend came and took my daughter, bathe and then we menshalatkannya mengafaninya and brought kepemakaman, my friend said: "Nothing worth putting to the grave unless you", and then I picked it up with tears in his eyes and put it in the grave. I do not bury my daughter, but to bury the light that has illuminated my way of life. I pray to God that makes it prohibitive for me from the flames of hell and recompense kindness to the patient wife.